Normalities Lost

I miss normality, I miss the logic of knowing, of havin plans and having a mission and going for it. It seems now as though I live from moment to moment, not having any plan on my next step, I have one object calling on my time, yet it is the only object that I feel has no right to make coz such call. Its a broken phase of my life, no forward motion just stagnation.

Where is the next step, the stepping stones seem to be drifting further and further apart, as time creeps on and age piles up…. this is not how I see it rolling out!

I feel it, today more than ever! The normality has even left me! It was my last final earthly stronghold. Its now I will truely start finding out who I am, wot I want in life & what has real meaning to me! The distractions all but work removed… theres nothing but me left here! Its sorta scary, yet empowering at the same time!