summer comes
December 7, 2011good evening cape town,
had a chat with a friend recently… here is an excerpt from said conversation!
- Me: not feeling inspired, wishing I was anywhere but work, anywhere but cape town
- Me: kinda depro and bitter today actually
- Her: cape town is not that bad
- Her: bitter jeez i better stay away from you
- Me: cape town isn’t that bad… come here on holiday, etc… but I am over living here
- Her: so you should be on holiday…In CT, not working
- Me: yes and not living here
- Me: wanna be back in Jozi
- Her: Whats so great about Jozi?
- Me: its home
- Me: its where my heart and soul find happiness
- Her: why?
- Me: it has an energy that motivates me, inspires me
- Me: the air is dry & thin, it doesn’t wiegh me down
- Me: the openness of space feels free, letting me go anywhere, be anywhere
- Me: here I can never escape the mountain, constantly in my eye-line
i’m just so tired lately, so unfocused, so lost! wandering without direction for the first time in my life! its a feeling unknown to me.. i used to have goals, purpose… now I sit here unsure of anything, unsure of tomorrow, unsure of whats next. dammit i wish i could dig my self out of this, i am normally such a positive person yet here I sit sounding completely depressed!
i need to escape this place, escape this worry!
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